This an adaptation of a prior blog written on one of my other websites about 2 years ago. It seemed fitting to share it with you today. This week I found myself in the shoulda, woulda, coulda phases of life.
I find myself traveling memory lane lately; replaying my life. And trust me, it’s not flashing before my eyes – it’s slowly meandering along. While doing household chores the name of a friend with whom I’ve lost contact will pop into my head. I remember times spent together and wonder where they are and what course has their life traveled?
I look back over my life and some memories fill me with sadness. If I had the opportunity to go back in time there would be a few things I would do differently; some I’d erase. For the most part I’d leave most of my past untouched; to stand on its own merit; the good the bad and the ugly. God has redeemed and continues to redeem those not so good choices in my life in amazing ways.
The devil brings those memories, I would rather forget to the forefront of my mind often. He tries to convince me that God has not redeemed those things, I’m not forgiven and God’s grace does not cover my sins. Satan’s extremely busy reminding me of the “if only I hadn’t _______” memories. Of course when I allow him to do such I have no peace and my thoughts head towards ruination. “I’ve ruined my life and possibly the lives of others”. I know that’s not true. In those moments, however, truth is not reigning!
God brought me to Titus; Titus 3:3-8a, “At one time, we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, becoming hated and hating one another. But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having a hope of eternal life. This is a trustworthy saying. And I want you to stress these things…” The apostle Paul wrote this letter to Titus. Like me, Paul had done some pretty awful things in his life. Yet, God redeemed Paul’s life in almost miraculous ways. And like Paul, God is redeeming my life too!
Almost everyone I’ve met wishes parts of their life could have a redo. We acknowledge those things, but we must be careful not to stay in those thoughts. The devil would have us wallow in the shoulda, woulda, coulda of our lives. God would have us think upon the renewal, the free gift we have through his son Jesus. God would have us remember we’re justified by His grace and to remember God’s in the redeeming business – As long as we have breath his work, in us, is not finished.
Until next time,
“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me – put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”