When Faith and Fear Collide

Sadly, sometimes my faith collides with my fear. I want to believe that God is in the midst of my circumstances. But when the pain hits, it’s hard. The fear that I will live the rest of my life in pain, taking meds to make life bearable;  or the fear that P.T. won’t be successful, or the fear my life will never be the same haunts my inner being. A big fear, that the healing won’t last and all the pain and debilitation will return; only more painful and debilitating than before.

The enemy whispers, “If God really loved you… if God was really healing you, then you wouldn’t have such pain. He could take it away with mere words. All He has to do is speak and you would be healed. Yet, here you are.” And the voice continues, “Who do you think you are that God would bring healing to you. Look at so-and-so, and so-and-so who had similar circumstances and their pain never went away. They deal with pain day-after-day. They too believed God would heal them. Rather arrogant isn’t it, that you would believe God will bring complete healing to you over someone else. Just what makes you so special?”

faith-and-fear-collideI hate those voices which taunt relentlessly. No matter how hard I try, I cannot quiet them. Oh, I get them quiet for the moment, but before long they return. Isn’t that just like the enemy? He knows how to hit you at your weakest and most vulnerable moments. Satan knows how, when, where and in which ways to defeat you. But he doesn’t get to win. He doesn’t have the last word!

It’s precisely in these moments when I need to remember what the Word of God says. It’s in these times I must choose to believe what I cannot see, touch or feel. This is when I need to speak truth to myself; God’s truth.

What is that truth? God loves me! God wants me to have life and to have it abundantly! (John 10:10) God does heal today. Sometimes he heals miraculously in an instant. Sometimes his miracle happens over time; but nevertheless, still a miracle. God doesn’t always choose to heal. In those times I must travel the road laid before me. When that’s my path, God is always in the midst. I never walk alone.  (Deuteronomy 31:6) He will give me the strength I need. My job, is to remember that no matter what I might feel in the moment, no matter what my circumstances might say, God wants only my best. No matter what I see or think I can trust God sees the completed picture.

Sounds easy doesn’t it? It’s not. Not by any stretch! If it was my faith and my fear wouldn’t collide; it wouldn’t be an ongoing battle. When I’m faithful to take my doubts and my fears to the One who can do something about them, He is faithful to meet me in my moment of weakness.

Heavenly Father, I give it all to You; all the fear, all the doubt, all the woulda-coulda-shouda. Please fill me with your peace as I learn to trust You more; as I lean on You. In Your son’s most precious name; AMEN

Joyfully yours,

John 10:10: The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they (Sandra) may have life, and that they (Sandra) may have it more abundantly.” NKJV

Hebrews 11:1: “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” NKJV


Author: Sandra

I became a writer in my later years. I love blogging and sharing life with others. I speak to women's groups about the Christian life.

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